The New Normal

For the past few days, I've been turning in circles around our new home.  There's no background music nor am I practicing for Amercia's Got Talent. I've been spinning from room to room as I examine what needs to be done and, at the same time, not knowing what to do.

Two months ago, I was living in a different town, doing the same routine I had for years. I was engaged then but still in my  comfort zone. We were planning our new lives together and I was eager for my husband and I's family to merge into one. 

Life has been chaos for weeks with to do lists a mile long which left little time for much else. Boxes quickly became unpacked.  My husband went back to work and the kids back to school. It's left the house quiet for a few hours a day. In those wonderful moments when I am able to catch my breath, a question continues to enter my mind: "God, what do you want me to do?"

At first, I wondered why I had those thoughts. I'd received everything I prayed for. The man of my dreams, a great home to live in and all of us together as a family. So, why wasn't this enough?

In a home with five children, there's always something that needs to be cleaned and meals that need to be prepared but tomorrow will be the same thing.

The same question plagues again: "God, what do you want me to do?"

So much busy work has taken a front seat that I haven't paused long enough to hear His answer.

Today, I stopped and picked up the pen and paper I'd neglected for months and I wrote.

Suddenly, I heard God's response. "I have more I want you to do. Follow me, one day at a time, and I will show you." And, just like that, my eyes welled with tears as joy swelled within me and I smiled as I thought of my future and what the new normal is.

Each one of us have deep rooted desires. Maybe its to be a teacher, a baker, or a homemaker. For some of us, we don't know what we want to do, but we know we were made for more. The passion inside of us...the thing that keeps us up at night... that's what we should pursue.  The gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable. (Romans 11:29) With this in mind, may we constantly be in prayer that our God will make us worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may bring to fruition our desires for goodness and our every deed prompted by faith. (2 Thessalonians 1:11)

As i navigate through this new chapter and role in life, I can't help but wonder what God has in store. I'm walking blindly like so many of us often do. As scary as change can be, it's also the most exciting. If you are reading this and are in the midst of a new job, new role or if God is nudging you to venture out, know you aren't alone. Trust in The One who never leaves us, commit your actions to Him and He will make His plans  for your life succeed.